Of Emotions

May, 2008 - The Month of Emotions

A lot of mixed feelings the past few weeks. Newborns, deaths, marriage, heartbreakes, crushes, you name it we got it.

We've got friends delivering happy news of starting a new life, be it a new partner or addition to the family. Always makes me wonder when I'll be given the opportunity to start mine.

And today, I suddenly feel overwhelmed with a crushy feeling. It's totally absurd but I can't help it. It's inducing a lot of endorphins. Maybe because I'm lagged of sleep. Or maybe a little tired. Or maybe adjusting to the fact that my work load is not so loading.

Then, I was thinking about Papa and Aunty. The drama episode that got us all angered and disapppointed, and provoked our female tear-glands. Oh, my composition is so cold and unstructured.

All these in between sudden news of the departed loved ones. Makes us reflect on how Allah works His ways to wake us up when we're busy chasing worldly matters.

Today is a Friday, the day I was born and possibly the day I will die.

Before I do, I really hope I will get the chance to raise a family, if not for long, but enough to let my parents see their grandchildren, and enough for me to know that I can raise my children at least half as good as my parents raised us.

Everyday has been a mixture of feeling like a child, like a teenager, like a parent, like an elderly and I am so thankful to be able to taste if not much, a bit of all this.

And, yes, I have crushes. :)