What Do I Want

I am placing order for;

1. A brand new grey color Honda Civic!
2. My beautiful, intimate, classy wedding!
3. Gorgeous kids of my own!
4. To see the Grand Canyons!
5. To own my own double storey house in a great neighbourhood!
6. A minimum income of RM5,600.00 this year!
7. To rake in minimum RM100,000.00 for RTS!
8. To be a damn good pianist and piano teacher!
9. To perform the Hajj!
10. To sell my photography works to renowned people!

28th On 25th

Another fabulous year!

I am grateful that this year, I have someone very special celebrating my birthday with me :)

I see that next year will be better and even more special :)

Sayang was the first one to wish me happy birthday face to face, and the first one to give me a present. A Charles & Keith bag! It's black and shiny and has a beautiful red interior. It also came with a red and white polka dot ribbon on the wrapping :) of course, there was a sketch of us that came in the greeting card. I love you infinity, sayang :)

I got quite a number of presents this year, I'd say. Gucci bag from Eem and Yaz. Flowers-white roses and purple statis from Kak Pit and gang. MAC compact from Renny. Photoframe, notebook and teddy bear from guys at work. Body mist from Ennie. Cash from Mama (again! I feel so guilty) and abundance of well wishes. Mama organized lunch, where Eem cooked an Arab meal. Kak pit and family and Fahimi sayang, came over as well. We had Just Heavenly chocolate and cheese cake to finish it off. Afterwards, we watched videos from Raya in CH before sayang and I went out to catch a movie. The Ugly Truth. Chick flick, didn't quite like it.

At night, we went to Ennie's to have the triple birthday celebration. Ishida and boyfriend was there as well. We had a really great time entertaining Kiera, and she was being bashful with Sayang like most of the time! We ended the day by going jamming with Ajead and friends in Sri Gombak. Got home around 3am, and was really thankful for a superb day. Mostly because it was spent with him. I'm so in love. I don't know what else to say.

Well, I'm off to wake him up for work. Talk to you soon :)

Of Written

Hey, Come Fly With Me is on Traxx FM!

Incidentally, its my new phone ringtone, but Frankie sings mine :)

Yes, I'd like to update that recently another plan has been made a success. We pulled off Mama's 50th birthday surprise last week on the 9th of July!

It was a hectic week for us. Faheem got in earlier the week, on Monday, and we hid him at Pak Ram's for about 3 days. Party was on Thursday. Had to sneak his wife everyday by saying that she's out with Nadiah!

So on the day itself, we had Aunt Gah and Aunt Sham take Mama out for a spa day in Holiday Inn. I took half day off on that day and came home as soon as Mama got out.

Kak Pit came on in later for party decos... It was lovely in hot pink and orange.. Flowers and balloons abound! Eem and Yaz worked the kitchen, and Aleef was in charge of layout and entertainment.

Hey.. gotta sambung this later..!

Of Cooking

Another goal achieved!

Earlier this month, I've started learning how to cook from Mama.

Lesson 1 - Masak lemak cili padi ikan, ayam goreng rempah, telur bungkus, sayur peria goreng.

Much to my bashfulness, Mama gave it compliments. Except for the sayur, though.. it was a bit dry and undercooked. Other than that, it was ok. Even got complimented on the rice! Haha. But, everything was pre-prepared, as in, the ingredients were already laid out and chopped by Mama. The chicken was already marinated. I still have to get my hands on the recipe.

Lesson 2 - Masak kicap cili padi ikan, sayur campur goreng

Interrupted by a chatty (otherwise supposed to be helpful) s-i-law. Didn't turn out so nice this time around.

Fish was undercooked. Kicap sauce a bit salty. Sayur sawi was not cut properly. Too much oyster sauce - salty as well. Luckily fried some ikan masin, and there was some left over sambal tumis sotong from the night before.

Lesson 3 - Trifle

Mama came to rescue the last bit of thickening the custard.

It was a near disaster, coz my love was coming to pick me up to go to Arif's birthday kenduri. The jelly was mixed with hot water too early, it was hardened before i could pour it over the fruits. Had to put it back in the microwave.

The second bowl's jelly lack hot water, causing the jelly texture to be rough.

However, all in all - Yaz liked it. So did his family, the brother even texted to say that they were all enjoying the 'pudding'. Big smiles!

Looking forward to more dishes this weekend. Next goal - curry and sambal tumis!

And, baking a cake :p

Of Nowness

Hey, my last update.. was actually written about a week or two ago.. but I only managed to post it today.

I'm at KJ office, boss has gone back, he's sick and the rest of us are doing our own things. No one is actually 'working'. Probably we haven't gotten our gears kicked in yet.

Yesterday we went for Epul and Fid's wedding. Everyone was expecting us to go next. Funny, but nice funny. We hadn't argued for about two weeks (and I don't wanna jinx but saying it) but it's all good. Last night, he suggested we open a joint account by early next month. We're so into each other. Six months official now, almost one year unofficial :)

Six months of cutting his nails for him :)

His good friend had a chat with me in the car yesterday as well, about tying the knot soon. I guess I took it as a compliment when he said that it looks like I'm the most suited one compared to the rest he's met before.

I've learnt how to cook a bit the past month (finally!). Two weeks ago was masak lemak cili padi ikan, ayam goreng rempah, telur bungkus and sauteed peria. But, it was mama who prepared the ingredients. Last weekend, was fully me - fish in soy sauce cili padi and sawi in oyster sauce. It was all salty! But mama was kind enough to say that it was quite tasty haha. I'll try again this weekend. I'm smiling. I wanna cook for him. Like, until we're old and weary.

I've unofficially stopped smoking. It's been about a month plus since I stopped smoking during office hours. About a month since I bought cigarettes. About two weeks without a full stick. The only time I smoke, or rather take one, two puffs is when I'm with him. Other than that, nada, nil. No more cigarette smells in my room.

Ramadhan's engaged. He's getting married in October. Oddly, the person I was rushing to tell was Illyaz. Beats me.

MARA approved my loan. But letter offer was sent to DU address in March. I found about it in April. They're reviewing my appeal. Regardless, I'm leaving it be first. I will apply again. Next year. This year is dedicated to this start up. rts.

I've been doing yoga the past week. I feel happier.

I am truly blessed. With my family, with him, with my colleagues, with my friends.

It's all good.

Of Catching Up

Its 28th May 2009.



Three months ago was my last update.



It's almost half year gone.



I'm at our new office. In Kelana Jaya. Alone. They have gone to Johor for our device testing. Tomorrow will be my turn. Going up north to Penang.



Have not been so happy lately, mostly self-inflicted. Have argued with him, several times now. Almost at least once, every week. Not liking it. Have cried more than once.



I shouldn't be posting that up.



Slowly, trying to attract good things. Great things. Like the fact that, he truly loves me. Like the fact that, he kisses me everytime he gets the chance to. Like the fact that, earlier this week he took me to the clinic, coz I've been having tummy aches and the doctor diagnosed it as a minor urine infection. Like the fact that, in an interview with a magazine, he was the only one in the band who admitted to having someone special, and plans to marry in four years. And, after the clinic visit, he sketched us, yet again, and he sketched OUR home for the first time.



Ramadhan's engaged. Last week. Getting married in October. Funny. I was itching to tell Illyaz the news.



Maybe these past few months that I haven't blogged, all emotions are clogged. Making me uneasy.



He calls me every night before I go to sleep, and (speak of the devil, he's calling now1!) I call hiim every morning to wake him up.

Of Letting Go

I finally tendered my resignation. On 3 Feb ago.

Was expecting a rush of relief but I didn't come. Apparently, The Director accepted it with open arms. He texted to the Admin manager, 'Ok, accepted'. Two words. I didn't know how I felt. But was unexpectedly quite saddened. Why? Strange. Thank God for my pillars of support - the two girls immediately congratulated me. It was something I had been wanting to do for a long time.

The past three weeks have been dramatical. Emails flying here and there, full with rhymes of sarcasm. Of course, these were sniggered by the Coup d'Etat Team. Haha. The past few days, I got a change of view. I'm probably gonna miss The Director. For his funny being. Like I shared with everyone - he's so entertaining!

Yesterday. Was what I would classify as a really special day.

1. We were all bombarded, rushing to complete software requirement list for David. Rushing to complete items for local authority company registration. It was a tight day for these three girls.

2. Southie came to visit me at the office. Came with two others. Took me out for lunch. Thanked and congratulated me for the tasks I was assigned to during the project. He's going away too. To Africa. Starting a port there. I so look up to him. It was typical of him to be nice. I'm not sure whether there was anything in between the lines. But he did ask whether I was leaving to tie the knot. Is that a hint? I added him on fb.

3. Sent my farewell email. After months of keeping a draft. Received so many (unexpectedly) good replies! Everyone is supportive and kind (again, unexpected). Even got a job offer from OUM!

4. Had dinner with Mi Amor in Rasa Sayang. Did I share that we have been snogging?? Cheeky.

5. Ramadhan came to the house. Finally - after 10 years - he has found someone!! I am SO happy, I was jumping up and down when I told Mama. And I hugged Aleef. And I texted Renny and Kak Pit and my Love of the news. He's so in love with her. Now this, was a total relief. He actually read out messages from his phone of the things they went through together, told me every single detail of his outings with her which took from 10pm - 12 mnite! He came to seek for advice, coz they're going through a patch now. I just couldn't believe that we actually had a decent conversation as friends, after such a long time. Alhamdulilah. I still feel that he hasn't changed much, I told my Sayang, that speaking to Ramadhan felt like speaking to a 17-year old. I feel so much older! Sayang, of course, backed him up, saying that's because he's in love - hence, he's acting like a teenager. Sayang is too nice. He makes me laugh. All the time. He makes me think. Makes me creative. Makes me wanna write music again. And work harder. And appreciate life better. He calls me Jiwa Raga. So Melayu. So sweet.

Oh, Ramadhan says, he's got an aunt with sixth sense? He goes to her for relationship advice. Okay. He said that she said - I (me) am a career woman. Wow. I was brimming like a clam! Maybe this setting up is right on track anyway!

I am at the office. Alone again. But loving it. I'm still replying emails from my liaisons who are shocked with news of departure. I feel like a fan club email post. Haha. Nazery Mima wants to take me out for lunch next Monday. So does KTB. I feel loved. I am smiling.

Have been telling everyone I'm leaving to pursue my studies. Let us surprise them again in the next few weeks :)

We are planning a getaway weekend next week. I pray for His blessings. I pray that He hears our prayers. To be with each other. For always. I'm getting goosebumps.