Of Letting Go

I finally tendered my resignation. On 3 Feb ago.

Was expecting a rush of relief but I didn't come. Apparently, The Director accepted it with open arms. He texted to the Admin manager, 'Ok, accepted'. Two words. I didn't know how I felt. But was unexpectedly quite saddened. Why? Strange. Thank God for my pillars of support - the two girls immediately congratulated me. It was something I had been wanting to do for a long time.

The past three weeks have been dramatical. Emails flying here and there, full with rhymes of sarcasm. Of course, these were sniggered by the Coup d'Etat Team. Haha. The past few days, I got a change of view. I'm probably gonna miss The Director. For his funny being. Like I shared with everyone - he's so entertaining!

Yesterday. Was what I would classify as a really special day.

1. We were all bombarded, rushing to complete software requirement list for David. Rushing to complete items for local authority company registration. It was a tight day for these three girls.

2. Southie came to visit me at the office. Came with two others. Took me out for lunch. Thanked and congratulated me for the tasks I was assigned to during the project. He's going away too. To Africa. Starting a port there. I so look up to him. It was typical of him to be nice. I'm not sure whether there was anything in between the lines. But he did ask whether I was leaving to tie the knot. Is that a hint? I added him on fb.

3. Sent my farewell email. After months of keeping a draft. Received so many (unexpectedly) good replies! Everyone is supportive and kind (again, unexpected). Even got a job offer from OUM!

4. Had dinner with Mi Amor in Rasa Sayang. Did I share that we have been snogging?? Cheeky.

5. Ramadhan came to the house. Finally - after 10 years - he has found someone!! I am SO happy, I was jumping up and down when I told Mama. And I hugged Aleef. And I texted Renny and Kak Pit and my Love of the news. He's so in love with her. Now this, was a total relief. He actually read out messages from his phone of the things they went through together, told me every single detail of his outings with her which took from 10pm - 12 mnite! He came to seek for advice, coz they're going through a patch now. I just couldn't believe that we actually had a decent conversation as friends, after such a long time. Alhamdulilah. I still feel that he hasn't changed much, I told my Sayang, that speaking to Ramadhan felt like speaking to a 17-year old. I feel so much older! Sayang, of course, backed him up, saying that's because he's in love - hence, he's acting like a teenager. Sayang is too nice. He makes me laugh. All the time. He makes me think. Makes me creative. Makes me wanna write music again. And work harder. And appreciate life better. He calls me Jiwa Raga. So Melayu. So sweet.

Oh, Ramadhan says, he's got an aunt with sixth sense? He goes to her for relationship advice. Okay. He said that she said - I (me) am a career woman. Wow. I was brimming like a clam! Maybe this setting up is right on track anyway!

I am at the office. Alone again. But loving it. I'm still replying emails from my liaisons who are shocked with news of departure. I feel like a fan club email post. Haha. Nazery Mima wants to take me out for lunch next Monday. So does KTB. I feel loved. I am smiling.

Have been telling everyone I'm leaving to pursue my studies. Let us surprise them again in the next few weeks :)

We are planning a getaway weekend next week. I pray for His blessings. I pray that He hears our prayers. To be with each other. For always. I'm getting goosebumps.